Fear of the end? Isn't there some eschatological hope that is suppose to make me smile? It's hard when things come to a close, but even harder when one end is caused by something out of your hands. My grandfather is ill. So much of me wants to be home right now with him. And so much of me wants to yell at God! At this point though, I have to look at all the wonderful things God has done and is doing.
Maybe moving to West Virginia will be the best thing that has ever happened to me. Maybe somehow, my grandfath
er being ill and my calling to leave Aberdeen, my church, and my friends, is really a part of this "greater plan" God has. Now- I am not mocking God. As a minister, I always try to explain that the rough patches are a part of our needs to endure perseverance, but in practice it really does hurt.
Needless to say... this wonderful year has brought me joy, love, comfort and faith of my self. This new found independence boiling in my veins just shows God's grace and mercy. I thank Him for friendship, mentorship, and leadership.
"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so , but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:1-5 (NIV)
